When I am upset with someone or angry I tell myself to be calm and not to throw any agami seeds. My mind comes back saying I am ready to take rebirth. How do I get out of this cycle?
You must first pat yourself for asking this question. Very few people are brave enough to ask this question. You have not only identified the main weakness of your mind but you have also gathered the courage to ask a question on how to deal with it. You are a true and authentic seeker as you are not fooling yourself. Pat yourself again!
The mind says that it is ready to take rebirth because the mind thinks that it will surely take another birth as a human. Human birth is rare. You must have done some extremely good karma to be able to take a human form. You never know whether you will come back as a human or not. If your strongest impression is hatred towards somebody and if that person takes birth as an animal because of his/her bad karma, you will be born as his/her baby animal, do you get it? Ask your mind, are you ready to risk that? Really? Your anger and ego is so important to you that you are ready to gamble your entire human life and lead an animal’s life? Really?
If the mind is behaving like this, it is only because it does not understand the importance of a human life. All the Upanishads emphasize this again and again that if you do not attain enlightenment in this human lifetime, it is Mahati Vinashayati – biggest disaster that you are bringing onto yourself.
Understand that it just needs some training and repetition. Just like a small child needs several repetitions of discipline, so is the mind. Be a patient mother to your own mind. Do not waste this precious human birth. If the mind slips and makes a mistake, you gather yourself and keep trudging this path of knowledge. One day it will be extremely disciplined. It will become disciplined if you are 100% committed to your spiritual progress above everything else. Your authenticity and commitment to your spiritual growth over everything/everyone else will surely take you there, this is something I can assure you 100%.
So start mothering your mind, right now!
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