Everything around me seems to go against me. My son has been sitting doing NOTHING since he graduated. My brother has been fighting a fierce divorce case with his wife and lost his home, money, kids and job. My father has shut himself up. My mother remains in deep pain and misery due to the miserable conditions of all of her kids. My sister decided that she does not want to talk to anyone in the family. My other son has anxiety problems and is on medication. My wife has tried to find a job for many years but failed. My in-laws ill treat me.
I read every word of all the knowledge and try to apply all of it in my life. I still get sucked into depression and want to end this life so that I do not have to live with so much pain and misery. Please suggest something so that I can keep my sanity to live without thoughts of suicide.
Here are the steps to follow whenever you find yourself surrounded by suicidal or negative thoughts.
Step 1 – Understanding and reinforcing the following principles:
- Principle of Life and Death:
If you try to swim against the strong current of a river, you experience the extreme force of water. That extreme force can drown you easily only because you are struggling with it. When do you float and not drown??? when you let go of the struggle, stretch your hands out and relax, then you float.
Understand this that the water does not fight with you. You are the one that struggles with it. Similarly, life has a current of its own. The wise one recognizes this current and flows along with it, not against it.
As discussed in the Karma session, suicide is an act that will only increase your pain as you will be going against the laws of nature, against the current of life. Every thing happens in its own time, even death. If you try to push anything, you suffer. If one commits suicide, one comes back in a more miserable body/situation that he was trying to escape from. The tax is manifold, therefore never even think about committing suicide.
- Principle of Family Karma:
Some people have a strong family karma. Family karma is like a bank loan that you inherit. You must repay the principal with interest. That is the only way to come out clear. If you do not repay and instead declare yourself bankrupt or your house is foreclosed on, you will have to pay a heavier price and the scar will remain for a long time. So however tough it might be, come out clear! Because if you don’t, it will follow you for lifetimes. Might as well, pay it off and be done with it.
- Principle of Pleasure and Pain:
- Principle tendency of the mind:
Step 2 – Reinforcing the principles and disciplining the mind:
- Discipline the mind:
- Repetitive discipline is essential: Until a point comes where you are no more a slave to the negative tendencies of the mind, keep repeating it. Why? Because the mind is a slow learner, it takes some time to train it. But remain assured, once your mind is trained, the monkeys as well as the circus will disappear just like a mirage of a desert disappears. You will regain your strength to face Life as it is.